Only God!

As I was reading through Psalms I came to realize that David wrote things down. Revelations from God, sufferings, blessings, praises; anything and everything that the Lord was speaking to him he wrote down. I believe that he did this so that he could fully understand and comprehend what the Lord was doing in his life.

A little over a month ago I was laid off from my job. During that time I have gone through many different feelings and quite a few emotional roller coasters. There are things that I have been attempting to understand, but will never comprehend on this side of heaven. As I was reading through Psalms trying to gain more understanding I came across Psalm 143. It is one of the shorter Psalms, but has a lot of meat to it. I can’t imagine what David might have been going through as he wrote this Psalm, as he had more tangible enemies than I do. But didn’t Satan try to fool David as he is attempting to fool me this day? Of course! I don’t think that David truly believed that no one cared for him, but I do believe that he was in such despair that he knew and felt that no one could help him but God.

“I cry out to the Lord;
I plead for the Lord’s mercy.
I pour out my complaints before him
and tell him my troubles.
For I am overwhelmed,
and you alone know the way I should turn.
Wherever I go,
my enemies have set traps for me.
I look for someone to come and help me,
but no one gives me a passing thought!
No one will help me;
no one cares a bit what happens to me.
Then I pray to you, O Lord.
I say, ‘You are my place of refuge.
You are all I really want in life.
Hear my cry,
for I am very low.
Rescue me from my persecutors,
for they are too strong for me.
Bring me out of prison
so I can thank you.
The godly will crowd around me
for you treat me kindly.’”

Psalm 143 (NLT)

Hello World!

The purpose of this blog is to be a journal; an open journal where I can get my thoughts on paper. I am not doing this to try to fit in or be cool in the blogosphere, it is just a means for me to get my thoughts on paper so that I can better understand how I interact with my God. I know that God speaks to me frequently, but it gets all muddled in day-to-day activities and thoughts. So the Holy Spirit has compelled me to write things down as to tangibly see and understand what it is that God is trying to say to me.
I have chosen this journal to be read by everyone because I strive to be transparent with other believers, but find it hard to speak it as I don’t often understand what I am thinking.

DISCLAIMER: If you decide to read this you will have to forgive me if it appears that I am rambling. I will remind you that this is a journal and may not make sense at times.

But, I welcome any and all travelers on this road and hope that you will seek your own path as Christ has each given us a unique soul. First and foremost, however, we have to seek Him and Him only. Not his blessings, not his power, not what gifts he can give you, but only Christ and Christ crucified.